I’ve already passed 3 days of 2 weeks of loneliness, without Hamish at my breakfast time. Life has been kind of empty and aimless, full of loneliness and nothingness.
Actually, it’s not that miserable, but my point is that I’m used to having him with me all day and he might need to work for a couple of hours in the evening. At the moment, he’s away from me every morning. If I’m lucky enough, he’ll be back and have lunch with me. The thing is I am not always that lucky.
I just realized recently how ridiculously and easily I get addicted to silly things and some people. I really don’t know why. Is it because I get lonely for no reason so easily and I just have to find something/someone to hold on to?
I know I am so childish in many ways. I can’t help it. But as far as I remember, someone told me I seemed to have been growing up, just the way I expressed things..
OK! I’ll keep my mind growing up.
The room-makeover thing is still going on in my mind, but nothing can get started right now, please! I am wondering how I can keep this place tidy (or at least, uncluttered) and colorful. I personally love black (& white, sometimes), but when it comes to the place where kids are around, I’d prefer bright colors - to give them some imagination and to give myself some inspiration.
I have so many projects written down in my little journal, so that I won’t forget.
- Learn how to draw
- Learn how to paint with different kinds of colors and tools
- Learn how to sew by hands
- Get my stuff organized
- Store cute stuff for scrapbooking
- Get to places I’ve never been to - in town, of course
- Print out those photos I get excited with
- Weight loss.. Come on! You need it big time, Shieri!!
- Etc.
When will I stop being stupidly lonely?!
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