Since that day going out in the evening, I’ve kept thinking about my old days doing the same stuff and wondering when I can do it again.
I hope I’m not too selfish for wanting to be me, wanting to live my life for myself sometimes. It’s not that my life is that bad, in fact, it’s not bad at all. I just don’t feel like I’m living for myself some of the time, with all the responsibilities I’m not quite so ready for.
But again, thinking back from what I’ve read so far in The Last Lecture.. from seeing a movie I’m not allowed to say.. Life is so complicating. Sometimes, you really think about other people before yourself, and at the other times, you always come first. So, I’m stuck. I just don’t know what to do with myself.
As the holiday season is coming along, I’m just hoping there will be a smile on my face at all times, of course, for myself and everyone else, to enjoy the season of happiness.
Hmm, should I store some alcohol drinks in the fridge, at least that’ll make me feel like those old days!! :P
